A decade later, Bodhi’s humanitarian work takes him to poor and conflict-affected countries on the southside of the Mountain of Mortality, where men kill and die over whose God is right. On one such early morning, before the house stirs, Bodhi places notes on the kitchen table, lifts his duffle bag, and steps quietly into the dark.
The heat and suffering overwhelm him upon arrival. For the next month, he works at a social center, comforting those dying from disease and famine. At night, by candlelight, he journals and studies philosophy and religion. Bodhi depends on these quiet hours, time to face the part of himself he keeps hidden at home.
Drawn to how ancient cultures understand God, Bodhi asks a village elder about the Priest of the Earth, said to live beside a great Baobab tree a few hours down the path. Near the end of his stay, permission is granted. The next morning, Bodhi is awakened by roosters and steps from his mud hut, restless and expectant. The savanna stretches before him, dry and endless, already warming with the rising sun.
As he walks, Bodhi thinks to himself:
in the middle of nowhere
what am i doing here
came to relieve suffering
yet nothing feels clear
can we bear the weight
of hatred and intolerance
how long can we survive
the burden of ignorance
does life have meaning
a moral underpinning
does it rest on god
absolute from the beginning
and with esoteric questions
come those from the heart
with a loving family at home
why do i feel so far apart
The path narrows as Bodhi walks, the village fading behind him.
Bodhi arrives at a church enclosed by high mud walls, their surfaces cracked but unbroken. Thirsty, he approaches a wooden door engraved with a dragon. Bodhi knocks and an old nun, with a blue and white habit, opens it releasing several sheep into the yard. The nun hollers at them:
back inside
blessed ones, stay
or the wolves will try
to tear your faith away
The sheep run back into the mission, and the nun turns to Bodhi and welcomes him, warmly:
welcome young man
to the lord’s retreat
a mission of mercy
so glad we meet
my name is mother sheep
this is god’s palace
here we nourish souls
drinking from his chalice
Bodhi answers:
sorry to disturb
just passing through
to the earth’s priest
to hear what is true
walking all this way
has made me hot
looking for water
and answers i’ve sought
Mother Sheep smiles and responds:
thirsty you are
far from home
please come inside
where lost souls roam
Mother Sheep steps back from the doorway and welcomes Bodhi into the dark mission. The escaped sheep reenter and disappear into the hall. Once inside, the nun leads Bodhi to a small dimly lit kitchen where she motions for him to take a seat at the table and hands him a filled cup. She says to him:
take this my son
drink up god’s love
quench both thirsts
earthly and from above
Bodhi drinks the water while Mother Sheep continues:
what is your name dear
from where did you reside
why visit the earth’s priest
he is no faithful guide
Bodhi responds:
my name is bodhi
a humanitarian volunteer
at the social center
not far from here
staying near the village
but home is far away
i come with questions
on my mind they weigh
Mother Sheep takes Bodhi’s hand and says:
my poor boy
you seem so lost
perhaps god led you here
to thaw your heart’s frost
here you will find
all you need to know
priest that you seek
he lacks our divine glow
he does not accept
what christ has shown
that those who turn away
are left to walk alone
what you will find here
unlike your center
is that we care for souls
that heaven they may enter
like those who use reason
or bow down to other divine
such as your earth priest
or the wolves, those swine
Mother Sheep picks up her Bible from the counter and leads Bodhi down a narrow and musty corridor. They stop and turn into a small room where they see a nun caring for a sick villager lying on an old cot. Several sheep sleep on the floor. Mother Sheep hands Bodhi her Bible, walks several steps toward the cot, and takes the patient’s hand saying:
open your heart
and offer love
to our father
the lord above
Mother Sheep lets go of the villager’s hand, pauses, and with tears in her eyes addresses Bodhi passionately:
jesus told me to save lives
many years ago
caring for bodies and souls
both we must know
villagers now come
throughout this land
free health and education
seek an offering hand
when time has come
we guide their breath
so they may meet god
in a gentler death
Mother Sheep takes Bodhi by the arm and leads him out of the patient room. As they exit, Bodhi says:
thank you mother sheep
for the water free
but i must continue
to the baobab tree
Mother Sheep’s smile turns into a frown and inquires:
are you sure
why do you leave
stay here
help us grieve
Bodhi signals he must leave, and Mother Sheep walks him to the mission’s exit. After walking for several minutes, Bodhi realizes he still has Mother Sheep’s Bible under his arm. Hurrying back, he finds the front door ajar and enters. A sick man approaches and whispers to him, frightened:
help me escape
walls of this prison
i cannot stay here
sorrow has risen
mother sheep says i’m suffering
as christ did on the cross
says agony is a gift from god
to suffer beside the cross
who needs medicine
when we have his word
simply accept jesus
when eyes are blurred
Mother Sheep enters the foyer interrupting the sick man and asks excitedly to Bodhi:
welcome back my son
have you changed your mind
will you be staying with us
to help see the blind
i see you have met
a lost soul to curse
although he feels pain
his spiritual suffering is worse
Bodhi, looking confused, responds:
i’m just returning
the bible to you
i’ll leave it here
on the wooden pew
Bodhi places the Bible on a bench in the foyer and exits the mission. Turning up the path, he looks back at the door and sees Mother Sheep standing outside, surrounded by her sheep, staring at the dragon on her door, its scales catching the light. She quietly mutters to the heavens:
i try to be strong
but doubt fills my heart
dark night of the soul
from his love i drift apart
As Mother Sheep enters back into the mission, Bodhi calls out and points to the mud walls:
since you are open
to help all find god
why so many walls
so tall and broad
Mother Sheep points to the door’s engraving and responds:
those wolves from the field
eat my sheep they try
but thou shalt protects
an eye for an eye
Puzzled, Bodhi continues walking the path.